Skeletons

Do you ever wonder about the skeletons in people’s closets?
I do.
Ask Tom DeLay…he has skeletons. Ask President Bush, he has skeletons (recall the 2000 election fiasco of his DUI fifteen years ago). Ask Robert Bork, Teddy Kennedy or any major politician: they have skeletons. Ask me: I have skeletons. Ask anyone: they have skeletons too.
We throw them into the closet and conveniently lose the key, hoping that no one finds them. We live our lives eagerly hoping that nothing will come up to bring the dead to life. Or at least we pray that the closet door stays closed.
What seems oddest is that we try to hide so many facets of our lives. We hide our personal lives from co-workers. We shield friends from other friends. And we certainly limit our Sunday morning conversations.
And at the end of the day, our best efforts to preclude people from seeing into our lives rarely work. We see through the facades of life and into the recesses of the soul. This seemingly happens on a day-to-day basis. We clamor about how no one really know us, but it’s very likely that they do. It’s likely that they describe you better than yourself; and it’s likely that you are the one who is being deceived.
And worst of all is that you deceive yourself. And you keep hiding those skeletons, even though your closet has a glass door.

Fragile

It will never cease to amaze me how fragile life is. One minute you’re here…the next you’re not. There is no fan-fare, no symphony gloriously proclaiming your exit. In a split second, you breathe your last breath. And to dust you return.
What do you do when you have six months left? When the doctors tell you that your condition has worsened, and that medicine cannot save you? Do you weep that your time on earth will soon be over? Do you question your existence? Do you wonder what you have done, and what impact you have made on the world? Do you travel the world and do things you always dreamed of? Do you spend time with friends and family, sharing every last waking moment enjoying them? Do you pray that your time is less than what the doctors say?
What do you do?
It seems like it would be easier to pass quietly in the night. Sometimes it’s easier to deal with the spontanaeity than with a known exit.
What would I do? I would pray for healing. I don’t see any indication that God won’t heal people now–that job certainly isn’t limited to doctors. I would pray for God’s glory to be shown. The things we feel are the worst never really are. Sure, they’re hard and they suck. But think of the three-year-old: a boy wants to eat chocolate before dinner, but inevitably his mom will catch him and tell him it’s not good for him. Cookies will only make him sick and will keep him from growing. The boy thinks it’s terrible and unfair. The mom knows it’s best.
God knows what’s best for us, even if we think he’s wrong.
I would also pray for family and friends. Once you’re gone–you have no worries and no pain. They are the ones who have to endure your exit. And lastly, pray for the remaining time. Tie up the loose ends. Tell your wife and kids that you love them. Say you’re sorry for the things you did that hurt people. (and mean it). And know that the Lord is faithful and just; this is just the next step in life.
Of course, I’m standing from a distance thinking about this; I don’t actually have to endure the pain of experiencing this first-hand—yet. It’s easy (or easier) for me to write these things being removed from reality…but as I think about it, this is exactly the kind of reaction that I hope I have when I am in a similar situation.

Crash

I watched Crash last night. If you haven’t seen it yet, you should.
Crash describes prejudice and the people behind it. It delves into interesting quesitons of stereotypes and racism without being overly preachy or politically minded. It shows the henious nature of mankind while piecing a group of seemingly unconnected people together. It poignantly shows how events in life effect your life and other lives, and how so many things in life are intertwined.
The plot weaves between a group disparate people, showing how they are all alike, yet so very different. And it shows the tendancy of mankind to be prejudicial–even when we’re not. And best of all, it is tempered with reality…something many movies lack.
The movie tells a story. You can see it in the footage. You can relate to it in the dialogue. And you can hear it in the music. And together it forms a cinematic wonder.
*Note: The dialogue is peppered with the f-word, so beware…

The Conrad Murders

I thought about whether I should post this or not, but it’s far too heinous and sad. My dad called earlier this afternoon and told me the news.
My second cousin ([more info on cousins], his wife, son and dog were murdered early Friday morning in Gray county. Gray county is a small [more info] county in the Texas Panhandle.
It appears as though the intruder(s) broke through the back door, shot the husband, wife (who was pregnant), and son while they were in bed. The weapon of choice was a shotgun. The intruder(s) also shot at the 10-year-old daughter, but they missed while she played dead.
The authorities have no leads as of yet, and no one knows why this house was chosen at random.
Read the full story (pdf) from the Amarillo paper.